I think you've just got a bad case of "Red Oktober".
a case of the Red Ocktobers, huh...
hahahahahaa... ok 'duck... that's your first one today...
HK... there's a lot to be said for modding... but there's equally as much to be said for creating an original game... if not more...
you can listen to all the motivation stuff that the drill seargents yell at you if you want, but remember... it's nothing but motivational crap... (i know... i used to be a seargent... not a drill seargent mind you, but i shot my share of the __it)...
despite what the marines say... you are NOT twice as capable as you think you are... as a matter of fact, most people aren't even a tenth as capable as their wet dreams would have em imagine ... hard reality, but accept it... it's a fact...
there are some things that you will just never do... either because you can't, don't have the talent, or are just plain not willing to do what it takes to even give yourself a fair shot at accomplishing these things...
it's that plain and simple... don't delude yourself with all that rahh rahhh, i can do it crap... be real... make an honest assessment of your capabilities...
if you think you won't do something, or you think you can't do something... then most likely you won't ever get it done... and i didn't hear this from any marine, or any preacher, or any voices from heaven...
it's just plain simple common sense...
*but* if you make the concious decision to do something... and plot a realistic path to follow, in most cases you will accomplish what you set out to do...
now, only you know the depths of your commitment... only you truly know if you can program, render, create a game that will satisfy you... ony you can decide whether or not you wanna commit to coding it from scratch, or modding an existing framework...
whichever... only you can make that decision... noone else...
good luck...
--Mike